You Drive Me Crazy....stressful !!!!!!!!!

Next Monday is my week 5th in QUT,
im really feel stressful,
i have 4 subjects within this Semester..
but its really hard to catch up to their tempo..

What are the problems??
Of coz, the main reason that is i have poor in English..
..example : those local take 10 minute to finish read a article..
that i might take 20 minute or even more longer to done it.

2) different of environment
3) people
4) live style
5) culture
6) english slang
......

As my friends said, we come here suppose should ALREADY know all about of the things,
all the way...
but we are newcomer...many things we still have no idea..
communication is another big problem..not only cause by poor english,
but is those local like to complicate even a simple thing.
its necessary to do that ??
FxxK..

Besides, 1 lecture is included 2 chapters in the text book
how to read o?? that is too much and thick.
i even cant finish read it...and then assignments is the following.
That is A LOT and Difficult...!!

im really feel stress..my friends too..
we always shout in the room..haha..
but i have no disclose and show out my stress
i pretending nthg in front of people..
because i just keep inside the heart..
suddenly felt im not their level..

Many people thought come Australia study is a good dream,
is a wonderful thing...
its because they dun know what is the REAL happen at here..
that is not easy as their think..
if can choose again..i prefer study at M'sia to finish my degree..
at least i won't lost my LOVER...

I have choose to came here, its a wrong decision for me ???
who knows ~~
gambateh....all the best~~!!

0.00000000 %

Today same as usual
5pm class until 8pm ...then went back to home.
nothing special

During the way to home on bus,
Lian sms me, said she keep fever and suffering there..
i really get shocked..i thought she was recovered
mana tau........

She suffering ...i quite worry there..haiz
i consoled her and asked her rest more..such things,
but i still worrying,but i can do nothing.
afterward i requested Miss Banana go to her house and visit her..
see whether she fine or not..

Unfortunately, miss Banana have no transport at that time,
OMG~!! how? =.=''
then i asked her to call Lian...
much later~
miss banana replied me , said Lian was nothing..just a little bit blur blur and cold..
and her bf brought foods and take care her..

bf? suppose to feel NOOOO!!! and Down when heard this,
definitely i am..
but think properly, she is sicking..
got somebody take care her i also 'Fang Xin'
at least he can do more to Lian than i can NOW..
im 'sui jor'

Get well soon~~

Wish you get well soon ^^

She is sicking...
i quite worry her, but i unable to do anything.
Take care...drink more water..rest more..sleep earlier..
wish her get well soon..
these are what i can do right now...

Heard from someone she is Paktuo already..
its truth or not ??? T_T
for me of coz hope is not..
i don't know...and
i have no idea...i cant control..haizZZ

i just said i should release my hand ,
but..did i really do that ?
haha.....seem like so funny..

OKOK..stop writing here...
should not be sad today..
hey miss banana , don't slap me plzzz..^_^!!!!!!!

Wish you get well soon~
take care yourself a lot yaa~
miss u :)
happy always XD

犯溅的我

Today no class for me
but im really 'Fan Jian'
early woke up at the morning...after washed my face..
then guai guai went to studied..
until afternoon..phew~

i dated with friends went to near by basketball ply ball..
when we were arrived there, we starting to warm up ..
there was only few people plying there just now..
no much later, suddenly got 4 local guys invited us to join and have a competition..
then we go lo..

they were so pro, fast and tall...
wah, someone even can slam dunk....WTF, still need to play meh =.=
all under expectation,
we loose =.='' that was nothing to curious..


Second,
Lian today followed campus went to KL parliament and Mid-Valley.
syok~~~
i long time didn't go there already...haiz.
she quite happy today...can play whole day le...haha
she happy i also felt happy ^^

we Msn just now...and talked a lot..
she asked me ,her birthday present should take Nokia 5800 mobile phone or have a trip to Thailand ??
i said choose the trip is better.., she think so~

Afterward i continue to asked her,
who offering these 2 presents to let her choose..? i thought is her Baba n Mama.
she answer me, is her Bao Bei...
OMG, Bao Bei?? i get shocked..
who is the BaoBei?its him?? or her just kidding?
or maybe i think too much and misunderstanding her
haha..

after i heard this, i really felt down...
why i wanna to asked, im really Fan Jian enough..
i blamed myself , if want to asked then don't want felt down... T_T
Guan Wo Shen Me Shi ~~!!!!!!
haizz..

If i have money i will give her also,
even a better than these two..
unfortunately, now i don't have....=.=
im useless..

sometime i will think, its i cannot compared with Mr.I ??
which part of me worse than him ??
why Lian will treated him better than me??
why Lian so like him but not me??
even broke up with him, Lian still called him Bao Bei..

maybe love should not occur these kind of stupid questions..
if must have a answer for those questions..
that is 'dun like then dun like, no why'

Miss Banana chatted to me yesterday..
i told her i miss Lian
she asked me don't think too much about it,
its time for me to ''WAKE UP''
...errm...i told her Yes, i will ..i know...
but did i ???..>.<
i have gave too much stress and tears to her. Sry
is time to release my hand.


phew~~
anyway, she happy then is enough for me right now.
i wish her...when i have go back to M'sia.
believe im totally changed...
i will try my best to get her...hope that time i still have a little bit chance~!
hehe^^

but what i scare is...i got life to go back to Msia? haha
who knows? !

please SMILE :)

hi, what's up Cutie~ happy~

Today so Happy er...
I chatted with Lian very much...haha
we seem like can tell each other everything..
but i know still got difference comparing to the past..
but i have satisfied and because i no dare to request more than..
Im felt we getting closer , not distance but is heart..
( i think too much jor)..
hahhaa...
i miss u.



Another thing , Today i was chatted to my new housemate YiPing
i have discovered,
she like formula one too...especially Kimi Raikkonen..
hahha...that was unblieveable..because seldom girls like to watch F1.
haha...


I found a old English song..
its suitable to me...
to my world of heart..
" That's Why You Go Away"

''....baby , won't you tell me why?,
there is sadness in yours eyes,
i don't wanna say goodbye to you,
love is one big illusion,
i should try to forget,
but there's something left in my head....''



Forgive me cannot forget you..
i miss you ^^

raining day~ + Add oil my frenssssss...

Mid-night of the Monday,
Recently the weather was unpredictable...keep changing one.
but today was rain..the sky turned to dark color at 5pm
raining made me feel comfortable..and cold~~

Today my class from 9am to 4pm..
Im tired but satisfied.
honestly , the lecture class was really boring n make me felt sleepy..
i tou tou sleeping there...hahaa..
dun peixi me..

Tonight dinner so good..im have no need to cook..haha
because Yi Ping gave us some foods ,
we just microwave it and eat...but that was insufficient to make me Full..
afterward i warm the Meat Pie and eat again..haiz..

What im doing just now?
online chatting with Lian and friends ,browsing internet, thinking business concept, come out with the draft ,
i have decided to set up a Comic bookstore for my assignment,
so far i have the main idea and points to do it...phew~~ thankx U~~
and now blogging lo..nothing to do also. plus lazy study..hehe.

Just now i recalled back my photo comments at Friendster...
hahha...that was funny and made me memorize a lot of the past...
especially Lian...haha
she now went out to Yam Cha jor...^^
i miss her ~

Today i have found a song so nice,
which sang by Joanna...songs name - ' Vincent' and ' times of your life'
that were appropriated for Raining Day...
tomorrow i have class at 11am to 2pm..only 3 hours..
not bad not bad...

i have Msn with Mok just now, he said he everything in Seremban was fine and disappointed to nowadays girls..
hahha....
because he felt most of the girls just like Handsome and Money $$$$..
izzit true?? hahha...
honestly , that was not only girls, some boys also like that one...
that was the ' trend of the world' ... >.<

Mok ah Mok ,that is not necessary to worry too much about it,
if you unable to change the world, then pls change and improve yourself bah,
increase your ability ,and no need to think negative...
before i have also negative thinking about love...but now i getting mature of my mind , maybe that was forced by the environment here...haha

Ermm...just put effort as much as possible...
same as me, i can do nothing to her at this moment, but this doesn't mean i have give up to her...maybe you will think izzit me too foolish ..?!
izzit i should not loving on her ?!
actually im NOT stupid~ hahhaa...
Love is not a business, how much you paid not necessary equalize to what you will get or return..
i also don't know what will going on tomorrow..,and don't know can get back with her or not...hahha...but doesn't matter first, just do what you want..
until now i was no regret,
the only 1 reason why i still persisting to her, that is because got 'LOVE' .

haha, Gambateh bah my friendsssssssss...
good night ^^ have a nice day ^^

Autumn is Coming...

Phew~ these few days, the wind was strong..
izzit autumn is coming ? i think so...
haha..

Today i was studies for whole day, but really a lot haven't touch yet,
and didn't turn on my laptop also...rajin leh...hehe
Afterward i went to play basketball with my friends at evening time,
i have a fun with playing ,but i was injured with my left hand.
damn painful~~

what i was ate tonight?
spegetti ~!!..i was ate this food until sienzz jor
T_T because other foods of material was finished..
but just now planned go to buy...but today is Sunday,
supermarket all would closed at 6pm....they were really ever Ci-Sin .

Tomorrow is the starting for my Week 4th of this semester.
so fast..i came here was already 1 month more..
dunknw how M'sia and my friends , families are going on now~~
wish they are fine.

Lian on9 jor...she finished her one week holidays.
but she hardworking for assignments + exam during the time..
really look like good girl and special..
Tomorrow is her Mid-Term exam , now she is studying hard over there ,
and planned to overnight..
come on take care la.~haha..
wish You & Jiao good luck here ^^

now i keep browsing web pages..
already lazy to study now...hehe
tomorrow 9am class until 3pm...its most busy day of the week !
but i needed to go there earlier..
because haven't print out my notesssss..

today know my new housemate, she came from china..
came here already 1 year...how she able to living this stupid Brisbane..
here damn boring and stupid...
i felt wanna go back when first day i was been here..

Its enough for today...im hungry right now...ahhhh
then i stop here ~_~'
finally i show my latest photo which took at room just now.
hahha.....paiseh~~

Just A normal day for Me..

Sunday ,1am++

Errm...what i did today ( Saturday )?
Woke up -> study -> cook and eat -> movie -> play basketball -> dinner -> study..
Pheww~~ what a boring day!!!
izzit you same with me? hahha

Actually tonite planned to go my sister house for her Birthday celebration,
but i was absented.
Because i have tired after play ball and it was too late to there..

But today my mood so down also..
what is the reason ? suddenly i have no idea..
maybe i missing her..errrm...
not maybe is definitely... >.<''

AAahhh...what i still thinking for ?!
did i cisin jor ( mad) ??
or i think too much of her?
still got chance ?
haiz~~
that was no answer..
forget about it first.
but i really love her right now.

Just now i sms a friend called Jiao (banana)
i told her before , if i mention i miss Lian again..then let her slap me!
hahaa..i failed jor, finally i told her , i miss Lian..but she didn't slap me,
and no reply..maybe running out of credit..
but doesn't matter la....hahaa.

Still remember i visited my friend's blog,
his life pictures at Melbourne was wonderful~~~
comparing to here ( Brisbane)...
Brisbane life like a shit...and here is nothing at all.
wish i can leave here as soon as possible.

midnight right now.. Jesus , where are YOU ??
are you beside me? i need your helps.
its time to offline and sleep..
good night ~

Lian, when we are going to meet again and again ?!
i missing that time we was together.
Sorry..
i miss you vry vry much v(^.^v)

sadness..+.+ promised

I ''shi lian'' jor.. T_T
But already 2 weeks more ago...
i seem like gave up ,but actually NOT..
until this moment, im pretty sure im still love her...izzit funny and stupid??
haha...ya,i think so~!
actually im Damn sad..
for covered my sadness, i have trial to pretending happy in front of her and others people.

Im very miss her right now.
Dunknw how she doing now..wish she is fine..
Who can i tell with my unhappy stories? Frens? Families ?
NOoo..!! I dun think so
but never mind , i got 'BLOG'..haha

Sometime still keep sms and msn with her..
i really felt want tell her , '' im MISS u vry vry much''
but i din..and controlled myself,
bcz im know she dun like im like that...i just want she happy.

When that time i was 'shi lian'
i felt wanna give up my educations and go back Malaysia..
im felt down...and stressful, bcz all unexpected stuffs are happened in Australia.
after someone consoled me..,im think deeply and clear my mind.
im decided continue staying at here.

After 2 weeks ago, im felt my thinking getting mature..
i knw i love her vry much , but not '' blind love''
we still young..whether can be with her in future ? i dunknw , but i wish~!
If i love her, i should be able to give her the best i can..that is why i cannot give up my academic.

What i can do now?
put effort to my education, make myself different ...like no others..
i have never forgot the promised..
and i not allow disappointed to those who put expectation to me !!!

I MISS YOU...

First time blogging..

Hi evryone for who visiting my blog..
This is my 1st time blogging ..im english is poor..hope u all can undstnd >.<
why im created a blog?
Bcz i am feel so SIENZZ.., down , stressful and sad (bcz shi lian) haha..
Suddenly dunknw wan to say what..haiz
ermm~~....nice to meet u all ^_^